A Gasp For Air

I took a gasp for air before I felt it surround me, the tiny particles covering every

inch of me. My muscles relax as I let go, not moving anything as i drift.

My mind and body drifting as one, I felt as if no one could hurt me

Not a single thing could break this moment, until i felt the burning in my lungs,

The burning becoming a sign of desperation, the need of oxygen getting heavier

That’s when I did it, propelling myself up, not matter how badly I wanted to continue

To stay in my relaxing state of mind,

I came up, gasping for air as relief filled my body.

This was the feeling I loved, the relief after all the pain

But it’s hard to push through the pain and get to the relief

You just have to dive in and pray for the strength to propel yourself up

And take a breathe of air.

God has spoken

God has spoken to me

Many times before

Whether it was in a dream or the feeling of his presence

I know that when all else fails,

He is there

I feel it

Not only in myself

But in my heart

Only time will tell

Until everyone else knows

What it is like to understand God.

Broken

She felt it

The breaking

Piece by piece, slowly falling

She was heart broken

But no one cared

Not even the people she thought she could trust

Her mind, body and spirit withering

As if a flower that has just been plucked off the bush

Slowly she fell, not one word spoken

Just her and her shattered heart

With no thoughts behind it

Just her and her withering heart

Lost

I tried

I tried to look for a light

I tried to find an exit

I tried to find my way out of the darkness

I tried reaching for help

but i was lost

with no way out

trapped in dispair

i couldn’t think

i couldn’t breathe

 i didn’t understand

what had i done to deserve this?

Drowning

Drowning

With no hand to grasp for help

I don’t get it,

Perfect people don’t exist

So why do we expect it?

No one is perfect

Not the person sitting in front of me

Nor the person next to me

I feel like i’m drowning

Drowning in expectations

And drowning in insecurities

Drowning, Drowning, Drowning